I'm Pushin a Rock!

This week 2 pounds down bringing the total loss to, drum roll please 11 pounds. Hopefully the next time I blog I will have broken through the 200 lb barrier. I will actually blog next when I lose the 5 pounds.

I have decided to give myself a free day. One day when I can indulge a bit with pasta, bread and steak. I know red meat is not the greatest for you so I will make it my once a month freebie.

My inner voice has been very bad and I have been "talking trash." It's funny I don't like negative conversation about other people yet I am my worst critic. It is going to change right now, right this second. As if blogging is not enough, I have begun to write everything down in a journal. It helps putting things down on paper. It seems to keep me on the straight and narrow. There are certain areas of my body that I hate such as my jelly belly. STOP!!!!!!!! That's what my internal voice says when I go to eat something bad or when I begin the trash talk about my body. Try it, it works. Makes you think twice, just don't do it out loud. People may begin to think your crazy. Plus as my friend Beth says "when you think of negative things you bring energy to it." I have put a STOP to thinking I am predisposed to being fat because of my genetics. Sure I am afraid and I am embracing the struggle. I have put a STOP to thinking I have limitations because of my age or finances.

My Mom used to say: "If you keep doing what your doing, you'll keep getting what your getting." Words to live by. It says it all doesn't it. Even if you change one thing this week like drink more water you will see a positive impact on your weight at the end of the week I promise.

Embrace the Struggle,

Rosy

He Noticed! He Really Noticed!!!!!!

John returned home today from Canada. The thought crossed my mind, I wonder if he will notice that I lost weight. OK, maybe he didn't really notice, although he did ask if I had lost weight. He could see something was different. I lost 3.2 lbs this week, making the grand total 9.2 lbs down. WooHoo!!! Which to a semi chubby person a substantial amount. Although when your as I was 215 lbs and going down to 206lbs there isn't going to be much more than "BREATHING ROOM" in your pants. And there's a lot to be said for not having those uncomfortable imprints when you take your pants off. Or the way a thong feels, no not sexy. Sexy on skinny girls, on fatties it just looks like the thong has been eating by there bums. That is way precisely I wear loulou lemon "yoga pants." You probably thought, Rosy must love yoga. She must do yoga everyday. It will be our little secret. As for the panties, we won't go into to that right now.

I finished my 9 day cleanse on Isagenix. My review is a five star. I didn't feel hunger or that bitchy. If you were to ask my children they would say that I seemed short. Maybe a little more shorter than normal.

I have been exercising almost 5 days a week doing cardio. I have been walk/jogging on the treadmill for 35 minutes or walking up the mountain behind my house. The body is an interesting mechanism, as you jog it doesn't want the extra weight so it in turn loses the excess. With a lot of jiggling along the way. Believe me when I say that everything is a jiggling. I realize that we all have access to different forms of exercise and it's all exercise as long as we keep our bodies in motion. As for weight training I haven't embarked on that yet. I did pull my Stotts Pilates dvd's out and my Yoga for Athletes. Who said Yoga is easy. Oh ya, that was me, well it looks relaxing and easy. It's not!!! Any advice for the beginner would be gladly taken. My first yoga class I thought I was going to pass out mid way through. I think that she saw I was struggle and made a politically correct announcement in class to modify some of the poses. Which I immediately did. It was either pass out or modify. The second class was margin better I only felt like vomiting. I will attempt it again, and again..... Maybe I am a gluten for punishment or could it be TRANSFORMATION.

I have been attending Lake Shrine every Sunday with my children. The Shrine incorporates self realization, meditation, yoga and spiritual teachings. I am loving it. I'm enjoying slowing down my crazy loud pace, the community of like minded people and environment. If you haven't toured the grounds of Lake Shrine your missing out.

I have decided that I am not going to beat myself up about being overweight. I am truly inspired with my transformations thus far both mental and physical. I am and will always appreciate all your words of inspiration. They mean so much to me and I take all of them to heart.

My good friend Beth Bovaird is along with her husband are Mr. and Mrs. Hypnotis. She wrote:

Remember!!!!! to use your subconscious mind. Remember to visualize how you want to look....tell yourself how much you enjoy cleansing and BELIEVE IT!!!! Words to live by and inspirating.

I do hope that my blog is inspiring all of you to live happy and healthy lives. You are all playing a very important part in mine.

Blessings,

Rosy

One Week Down and Another 64 lbs. To Go!

One day at time, I get that saying now. I guess I think of myself as a "foody" or "food addict." I am down 6 whole pounds for week #1. I decided to go on a cleansing diet for 9 days to kick off my weight loss. I am using "Isagenix" and my very close friend and supplier Rhosael is coaching me through it. Thank-you Rhosael for being my nutritional inspiration. The routine hasn't been difficult or even painful. I do the shake thing morning and noon then a meal in the evening. I am sticking to veggies and proteins. I am not eating after 7:00pm and drinking buckets of water. There are other products included such as: supreme cleansing, acellerator and flush. I can tell you it works. I don't feel as blotted and my cravings for sugars are subsiding and that says a lot coming from me since I am and always have been a sugar addict.

For exercise I have been doing the run/walking on my treadmill for 30 minutes a day. Believe me when I say it's not easy jogging at 215 lbs. The body is a funny thing though as you begin the walking/ jogging thing your body naturally doesn't want to carry around extra weight so the weight begins coming off. Until it does there is jiggling girlfriend!

I took the kids to Santa Monica Beach today. All I could do is look at all those beautiful tight bodies. Of course I kept covered up for now although I am starting to visualize myself thin and toned again. I think this week I will make my vision board. I am also imagining the foods that I put into my body as those that are good for it. Not just those that taste good and give me temporary satisfaction like the ones that just tickling my senses. I am putting foods into my stomach that are going to feel good an hour later. For example: Chinese food feels great going in and not so wonderful an hour later. Whereas fish and salad feels good to my body even afterwards. What I am doing is rethinking nutrition.

Next week I will finish off my cleanse and continue to exercise. I will include the "butt blaster" next week in my routine. My friend Remon was sent it to me, so I will tell you all about it next week. I guess I should do a before and after pic of my butt. YUK!!!! I don't know if I can go that far yet.

You have an awesome week, I plan too.

Love Rosy

Done With It!!!

I'm Rosy and I recently moved to LA from Canada. I moved here with my loving husband John and my lovable sons Joseph (5) and Stefan (8). I am a stay at home Mom although I do plan to return to my career one day soon as a make-up artist. We have moved here to support my husband in his career in the film industry as a Director of Photography. I feel like I've landed on a different planet. The women here are soooooooooooooo beautiful to look at. As my grandmother use to say "what do they eat to look like that." I'm quite aware that it's not only diet and exercise. It's a healthy lifestyle as well as, botox, injectables, spray tanning, fashion styling, extensions both hair/nails and the illusion of make-up.

Where do I begin. I was in an abusive relationship for 10 years with an alcoholic. He was abusive both physically and emotionally. My weight ballooned to a 220 lbs. When I left him my weight dropped believe it or not to 145 lbs with a lot of dieting and exercise. I then met the"love of my life" my husband John. He adores me and showers me with love. Typical story that you have heard a million times. I then gave birth to my two children and have balloon back to 215 lbs. I'm not blaming child birth. I am quite aware that I have become lethargic and my self esteem is in the dumpster. I dress like a college kid in track pants and t-shirts. It's an economic situation that has been going on for the last 10 years. I love these make-up over shows although don't know think that these people would dress well if they could afford it?

What is it that I hope comes from all this blogging? I don't know many people here in California so I guess you are all my new friends. My sound boards and support. Maybe by "owning my weight" as Oprah says will be the first step to a new silouhette.

Therefore I am going to lose the excess weight and make a goal weight of 145 lbs. I will be a beautiful woman on the outside to match who I am on the inside. It's not that I don't think plus size women are beautiful because I do. I just know that my health is suffering and if I continue on this path I will be a diabetic. I have begun snoring and my get-up-and-go has got up and went. My left knee gives out on me from time to time. I find myself limping after a long walk. I desire feeling energetic again. So my challenge is to lose the weight and to try new things. Maybe yoga, pilates or even pole dancing. If you are in need of a yoga buddy or just want me to try it first don't hesitate to ask. So my goal is to lose 60 pounds in 10 months. So there it is July 1st goal achieving day.

Best,

Rosy