Too Boot Camp or Not to Boot Camp

Rev it up!!!!!

I have officially lost 13 pounds, two more pounds and I will break through the 200 pound barrier. To some it may not sound like much, to me it is a triumph. I keep telling myself to "embrace the struggle." That is why I feel I need to "rev it up." BOOT CAMP, boot camp it doesn't matter how I say those words it still brings out the emotion of fear in me. The reason why I am speaking about a boot camp is that I recently met a gentleman Chris Bass who happens to run one. You can check out his website on www.betterbodiesintraining.net. He has a 45 day weight loss challenge. He is giving me the opportunity to trail a session at his boot camp tomorrow at 6:00am. I have no idea what to expect, is it going to be a killer session? Will I feel embarrassed? I am sure I will be awakening dormant muscles. That spells SORE. It will surely be challenging. I am breaking the cycle that I have been living way too long and throwing a rench into it all. As in the words of my Mom "I'm shaking things up."

A friend of mine stopped by the house today and has been generous enough to give John and I a gift certificate for a dance class. We are going to redeem it this friday!!!!!!!! Can you believe it.

I have definitely been doing a lot of soul searching, thinking about regrets I may have in life. Some of them can't be change like a certain person I married why to young to know better. I have to look at that experience positively as a learning and growing one. Since I've been in LA I have been confused about what to do professionally. I have a very close friend Rhosael who pointed out to me that I need to decide what my path is in order to move forward. I have always volunteered, first when I was 10 years old at Providence Villa for 5 years. Then I went onto Hospice in my 20's and in my 30's after my children were born I was lucky enough to participate in the hockey organization Unionville Minor Hockey Association. So the thought crossed my mind, I have dedicated so much of my life to care giving why not make it my life's work.

Looking Within,

Rosy