Done With It!!!

I'm Rosy and I recently moved to LA from Canada. I moved here with my loving husband John and my lovable sons Joseph (5) and Stefan (8). I am a stay at home Mom although I do plan to return to my career one day soon as a make-up artist. We have moved here to support my husband in his career in the film industry as a Director of Photography. I feel like I've landed on a different planet. The women here are soooooooooooooo beautiful to look at. As my grandmother use to say "what do they eat to look like that." I'm quite aware that it's not only diet and exercise. It's a healthy lifestyle as well as, botox, injectables, spray tanning, fashion styling, extensions both hair/nails and the illusion of make-up.

Where do I begin. I was in an abusive relationship for 10 years with an alcoholic. He was abusive both physically and emotionally. My weight ballooned to a 220 lbs. When I left him my weight dropped believe it or not to 145 lbs with a lot of dieting and exercise. I then met the"love of my life" my husband John. He adores me and showers me with love. Typical story that you have heard a million times. I then gave birth to my two children and have balloon back to 215 lbs. I'm not blaming child birth. I am quite aware that I have become lethargic and my self esteem is in the dumpster. I dress like a college kid in track pants and t-shirts. It's an economic situation that has been going on for the last 10 years. I love these make-up over shows although don't know think that these people would dress well if they could afford it?

What is it that I hope comes from all this blogging? I don't know many people here in California so I guess you are all my new friends. My sound boards and support. Maybe by "owning my weight" as Oprah says will be the first step to a new silouhette.

Therefore I am going to lose the excess weight and make a goal weight of 145 lbs. I will be a beautiful woman on the outside to match who I am on the inside. It's not that I don't think plus size women are beautiful because I do. I just know that my health is suffering and if I continue on this path I will be a diabetic. I have begun snoring and my get-up-and-go has got up and went. My left knee gives out on me from time to time. I find myself limping after a long walk. I desire feeling energetic again. So my challenge is to lose the weight and to try new things. Maybe yoga, pilates or even pole dancing. If you are in need of a yoga buddy or just want me to try it first don't hesitate to ask. So my goal is to lose 60 pounds in 10 months. So there it is July 1st goal achieving day.

Best,

Rosy